About This PeacefulBlessedStar…

For the few of you who may not know my story, I will be as brief as possible. Up until November 10th, 2012, I was a single parent who worked two jobs totaling on the average of 55 hours a week. My main source of employment was a third party benefits administrator, which was a fancy way of saying:

I worked in a call center and fielded questions from people concerning their health and welfare and sometimes pension benefits.

The better of the two jobs was an Adjunct English Professor at a local community college.

Both jobs took a lot of time, patience and brain power.

Notice, when I was speaking about my employment I was using the past tense. That is because on the above aforementioned date, the brain power I had ran out, and I suffered a cerebral artery aneurysm along with a stroke which has left me temporarily (God willing NOT permanently) disabled.
◾I have lost my peripheral vision in my left eye, so now I am unable to drive leaving me completely homebound and dependent on others to get even the smallest errand accomplished.
◾My hearing has been affected to the point being out in public is nothing short of erratic and chaotic for me.
◾My short term memory is/was so bad that up until VERY recently, I had a myriad of Post-It notes around my apartment to remind me to do the simplest tasks, which would be second nature to most people. For example, one day I checked to see if I did the dishes five times.
◾I had to start putting notes in my phone to remind myself that I already texted my friend today along with what I said to him so I wouldn’t repeat myself.
◾To keep from getting brain spasms and blood clots, I am on three medicines daily which leave me exhausted and freezing (blood thinners) a majority of the time.
◾Let’s not talk about the loss of income combined with the cost of brain surgery even with medical insurance.
◾Let’s also not bring up the “friends” that I no longer appear to have because they stopped texting, calling, replying to Facebook messages or coming by.

So, I sound pretty dismal, huh?

Depressed even?

Nope, not even close.

Why?

Forty percent of ruptured brain aneurysms are fatal, and sixty-six percent result in some sort of permanent neurological damage.

For all intents and purposes, I am blessed to be alive and coherent enough to construct cohesive sentences to express myself whether written or verbally.

So, after all of that scary, sad crap (lol) the I made a conscious choice in my life to spread as much Love, Peace, and Joy as possible to others who may be going through their own tough times.

Hence this blog.

Is it easy? Not always, but the more you put positivity into practice, like anything else, the easier it becomes.

I said “becomes” purposely, because it takes time and constant prayer, meditation, rest , recuperation, reevaluation and, more often than not, restructure.

Consider this the start of my “re-polishing”, and I hope I can rub off on you and inspire you to ShineOn!!!

Peace!!!

64 comments on “About This PeacefulBlessedStar…

  1. OMG, I want to give you a hug!!! So similar, yet so different.

    I’m so glad my service project inspired you. To get a complete grasp on my whole situation, in your free time, go to my blog, and if you haven’t already, read “A Change In The Weather,” “Blood clots and brushes with death, oh my,” and “Miracles.” :) It should all make sense after that.

    Bless you!

  2. Oh, you dear soul and person. My sons lost their dad when they were two and five to what happened to you. From my point of view, it could be called a miracle that you survived.
    It’s also interesting to me that I suffer with your same problems, triggered by viral meningitis. At home alone most of the time, I too started a blog to write about Love–that it applies to all of us. So, I’ll be following you now. You are an inspiration!
    Pam B

    • You touched my heart and made me cry.

      It’s a combined blessing and a curse to be called a miracle…but at least there has been a plus in all of this…I have opened myself up Spiritually and if that’s what God had planned for me because of this then I am at Peace with that.

      With Love,
      Star

  3. I like your point of view in life and the courage that gave you! Please keep it up. Thank you for the follow too! Please be aware that my blog is a bilingual one.
    So you may get links to some poems in English as well as to some in Italian…
    I’m trying to keep the posting balanced between the two languages.
    Anna

  4. The Lord is always with you, and will never let you be alone! Your words made me smile because of your unwavering faith. I am sharing a poem tonight on my blog, but I will share it with you right now….because you remind of some of the reasons I wrote this…God bless!

    The Best Of Friends

    When my paths were
    dark and gloomy
    my love would light
    my way

    When misery sought
    to enslave me, my Lord
    chased him away

    When the world no
    longer wanted me
    my Lord, He took
    me in

    And I owe all I am
    To my one true love,
    For in Jesus, I have
    the best of friends.

    Wendell A. Brown,
    December 13 2013

  5. What a blessing to find you and your blog along with the other amazing bloggers that I follow (you too!) and who have graced my life by following me. Best Wishes for this Holiday Season…In Joy & Light, JBC

  6. You are amazing!!! To have gone through what you went through and come out on top. The way you look at life has inspired me to look at life in a much more positive way. Keep strong.

  7. My heart breaks when I read about you :( I am touched and I am proud of your confidence…..You are really a strong girl !! I am inspired and honored to talk to you right now. Many prayers for your healthy life xx

  8. Kudos to your strength and determination, Indeed you are blessed and as your readers to meet someone as strong as you. Someone, who continues forward despite all odds. Thank you for visiting my blog :)

  9. What a great attitude you have. Absolutely amazing! As for your disappearing friends, you will find many better ones here I’m sure. Stay blessed and all the best, Zainab
    P.S. Thank you for following A mom’s blog :)

  10. Nice reading about you

    Thanks for visiting my blog. Be in touch. Browse through the category sections, I feel you may find something of your interest.

    Happy New Year !!!!!!! and best wishes for you in 2014 :)

  11. Spirit is a funny thing… If we knock him down, down he will stay… If we bring him up, he will shine… :)

    There is no endless energy on which we can rely on, some of us learn this on a very hard way, including myself. I wish you well and strenght to keep going!

  12. I can’t share how you inspired me. I don’t know you and haven’t seen you. Just stumbled upon this blog by chance and got the greatest reward for my life.

    It’s not enough but I don’t have any words except a hearty “Thank you”

  13. Your story is amazing and i don’t know how you do what you do but keep at it!! Your purpose is still being achieved!! :-)

  14. I just wanted you to know you’ve been in my thoughts and prayers all day. I hope everything went well for you.

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